Acceptance... maybe not

It happens to us all we age. I'm coming out of my 20's in 7 months time and I cant deal with it...

So this is how it all started.......
New years eve I was thinking about the year ahead as this year has been a a bitch and it dawned on me I will be 30 in July, my heart started to beat to fast and my chest constricted, the panic had well and truly set in.
I have only completed 2 of my things to do before 30 list

• Getting married 
• Having Children

and not in that order! So much I planned to do but never had the time or money to do it with, I feel like time as passed me by.
I dont feel old, well only at 6am when I wake up and have to face a 2 hour commute to work in deepest darkest winter. I still think and occasionally act like I did at 18, but the thought of my 3rd decade on earth freaks the hell out of me.

I started looking this up on line at I thought 30 was to young to feel completely washed out and out of love with life and I found some amazing stories and articles on this matter, I was not alone its seams that a lot of women go though this and its been branded "the female midlife crisis at 30"
So i am going to publicly share with you all my last few moths of my 20's, the tears the (manic) laughter, lots of red wine and hopefully at the end of this some kind of acceptance of my age.

Please feel free to join in with me if your at this sensitive age, or ladies if you have gotten past this stage all comments welcome